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7 Signs you have High Functioning Depression
Ya'll.. I almost titled this post, " What the hell is this shit!" I know you just laughed and I did too. I was like what the hell is going on with me?? Can you feel me. So back in 2013, I was 8 weeks pregnant with my daughter and you will not believe that my 54 year old mother died. That's when my High Functioning Depression and Anxiety began. But guess what I had no idea what was happening to me until 2016. But nothing was wrong with me, can you relate? I was working and working hard. I am naturally hilarious, but I used some of my humor as a distraction. I tell you one thing: I WAS NOT GOING TO THERAPY... NOPE! NOT AT ALL. I had babies in 2014 and 2015, I had to push through, I had to be the perfect first time mom, I did not address my grief, depression and, anxiety and focused on the kids. I had High Functioning Depression and Anxiety. It took many therapists and psychiatrists back in 2017 to give me that ONE diagnosis. How many of you have more than one mental health illness----raise your hand y'all and shout it to the moon, "I'm a bad ass for still being here in the fight, I deserve a happy and fulfilling life.
Have you ever wished for the correct diagnosis? How did it make you feel? When you received your diagnosis were you relieved, anxious, or scared?
I've got a few things for you today: a definition, a real eye-opening video that shows us we are not alone, Triggers, and some shit we can do about it.
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High Functioning Depression ( or Dysthymia) and Anxiety is defined as These are people who are generally unhappy in life but don’t meet the definition of major depression, which is more severe. Dysthymia generally persists for two or more years.
What's your decision today? Fear you will not get better or Faith that if you keep pushing you will get better?
I'm exhausted, I don't feel my best, homeschooling is becoming a daunting task, and I just can't do Monday morning. I will gather myself and have a better day, but right now I feel so heavy with all of my adulting that's required of me. This Monday, I hope turns out better than I imagine. I believe I'll make it through.
So far this week... I've had so many ups and downs these past two weeks--from losing the best job ever because of Covid :(. I received a call on Monday, September 21 from my boss at Longleaf Law Partners. The reason also is that I was the last one hired. THEY LET ME GO! Now, what does a person with a 5 and 6 year old do now? How are the bills going to get paid? Will we be fed? If I have to go somewhere, where is the gas going to come from? I guess my depression and ANXIETY was triggered. Of course it was. Then what happend next is a response that happens to me sometimes. I PANICKED AND starting having multiple a day since last Monday. But I had to get it together, but ya'll I just couldn't. My coping skills went out the window. My journaling went out the window. Self-love and care went out of the window. Why would they call to let me go? What did I do wrong? Did they not think about me and my family? This has been causing so much anxiety its unbelievable. Here is the definition of anxiety: People with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) display excessive anxiety or worry, most days for at least 6 months, about a number of things such as personal health, work, social interactions, and everyday routine life circumstances. The fear and anxiety can cause significant problems in areas of their life, such as social interactions, school, and work.
So, as for today and the past few days I have not had any panic attacks. I began leaning on my faith and understanding that I'm not in control of everything. Because I could not continue with the negative invasive thoughts. I began using my grounding method-this helps when you're about to have a panic attack or if you're already in that state. Today I'm a little better, the shock an anxiety gets better everyday. I'm so thankful for my support system because they are helping through this difficult time. These grounding methods (see image) are techniques we can all use. Use them. Take care of yourself, and help others along the way.
Brandlyn Owens is passionate about exploring and educating herself and others about mental health topics. She's a momma of 2 kiddos and she resides in Durham, NC.