So far this week... I've had so many ups and downs these past two weeks--from losing the best job ever because of Covid :(. I received a call on Monday, September 21 from my boss at Longleaf Law Partners. The reason also is that I was the last one hired. THEY LET ME GO! Now, what does a person with a 5 and 6 year old do now? How are the bills going to get paid? Will we be fed? If I have to go somewhere, where is the gas going to come from? I guess my depression and ANXIETY was triggered. Of course it was. Then what happend next is a response that happens to me sometimes. I PANICKED AND starting having multiple a day since last Monday. But I had to get it together, but ya'll I just couldn't. My coping skills went out the window. My journaling went out the window. Self-love and care went out of the window. Why would they call to let me go? What did I do wrong? Did they not think about me and my family? This has been causing so much anxiety its unbelievable. Here is the definition of anxiety: People with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) display excessive anxiety or worry, most days for at least 6 months, about a number of things such as personal health, work, social interactions, and everyday routine life circumstances. The fear and anxiety can cause significant problems in areas of their life, such as social interactions, school, and work.
So, as for today and the past few days I have not had any panic attacks. I began leaning on my faith and understanding that I'm not in control of everything. Because I could not continue with the negative invasive thoughts. I began using my grounding method-this helps when you're about to have a panic attack or if you're already in that state. Today I'm a little better, the shock an anxiety gets better everyday. I'm so thankful for my support system because they are helping through this difficult time. These grounding methods (see image) are techniques we can all use. Use them. Take care of yourself, and help others along the way.
Brandlyn Owens is passionate about exploring and educating herself and others about mental health topics. She's a momma of 2 kiddos and she resides in Durham, NC.